Category Archives: Diary


Take A Leap Of Faith

Dear Trista,

You have it in you to produce extraordinary results, so quit putting yourself second place at the race!!!  People feed off of your careless attitude when you strive to reach your goals, they are your cheerleaders beckoning you to win whilst the haters . . . are haters. If you have them then you must be doing something right.

Take a look at your little brother! He’s in ROTC and you are still back in the college saying that you’re going to join the military because you are waiting on a so-called bachelors degree to be an officer? Bullshit! I call total bullshit whether it’s a good idea or not. You should’ve been willing to take up on the offer when the pie was being served . . .so for now you can get away with that bullshit answer, but later when you have it . . . are you going to take that leap? The leap that will define your whole life and judge you based on your fears. Will this fear be the one that you’ve been dreaming of the whole time you’ve been making plans for it? Or will it be the one to your deathbed praying for more life?

I’d like to think it be your deathbed because there’s no time to waste in this life and you’ve made a decision. People don’t even get that far sometimes, so feel blessed with the presence of your spiritual leader guiding you in the right direction.


Knock ’em dead today. Get shit done!




There’s No Rest For The Wicked

Dear  Trista,

Recently you’ve gotten to your sleepless lawyer mode where everything appears to be typical and right down to the very books. But two books have found their way to you that will change the rest of your life and how you see things . . . forever. The first book called Tapping The Source will teach you how to connect to the universe and slip into the harmony of the ways of our creator because by all means you were created in his/her/ its image so you are perfect anyways. The knowledge that you are sucking up like a sponge I cannot even begin to explain.

The second book called the Celestine Prophecy will teach you how human beings are evolving and your generation is beginning to notice certain things the generations before did not have the capacity to . . . who knows maybe one day you will know the reason why we are on this planet to begin with. While you are on your journey and spiritual conquest I suggest you take it easy today and take care of business in a light motion to where it feels like a breeze underneath your heavenly wings.

Best regards!



A World Full of Hurt

Dear Trista,

Good morning more like it, an inner fear of rejection and hostility is boiling inside of you … just take it easy, 8 hours isn’t so bad, you’ll be in a world of hurt but so will everyone else. Also, you did the right the thing by calling the authorities last night for all that racket your neighbors put on because Dear Trista you need sleep, In fact when you go home tonight GET SOME SLEEP. The blood test might have to wait another day but that’s okay this job is temporary and so is your fears…I’m here  to guide you, you are not alone on this journey.  Close your eyes … breathe softly … repeat after me … happy mind … peaceful mind … holy mind … dig deep into your soul and awake the inner happiness kept deep within, and bring it forth to shine upon day and get you right where you belong.

Futuristically yours,


Back Bone Of Steel

Dear Trista,

Life so far has been a tangled web full of disappointment and clarity, but in order to get through the Halloween woods once more, you must look past the gloomy trail into the gingerbread forest. The job search is hard because you are barely beginning a conquest that will lead you far into success. The employers are bouncing at you because you are their ideal candidate for the brain washed associate realm. Just pick the easiest way to put a smile on your face rather than frown, even if the dollar signs are higher on one side than the other. Get through the day and breathe deep because you survived another minute, and accomplished far more than you’ll ever know.

Futuristically yours,


The Balance of Life and Death

My Dearest Aezora,

Life and Death are a never ending cycle.  With one comes the other, dancing and flowing about one another like a ballet dancer on stage. Their dance is an intricate
one; the choreography new, and unknown- yet as old as time itself.  Its theory of chaos, and peace, is wrought with complexity- and unpredictability.

We have a manner of things to try to cheat death. Medicines created from plant life, animal life, synthesized to specifically treat one item or another, or life support, for one whose body can no longer sustain daily functioning, like breathing. Throughout all this, the lesson we are taught is still clear- death cannot, and will not, be cheated. He is not evil- as some believe. He is the true one, the only one, the ethereal balance between the lines we tread. Between the lines of life and death. With one step we could easily shift from one world, to the other.

During this period of your life I know you feel as if the shadow of death is creeping just beyond your field of vision. You see him and turn, only to see nothing. You can feel his presence, forever watching your every move.  Taken from you are a grandfather, and grandmother, whose lifetime of wisdoms were never fully passed on. Taken from you is a child, brought so closely to the world, to be lost before you even knew her. Taken from you is a friend, whose unconditional love made all other loss seem bearable- which now, is unbearable.

Though I know it is hard to understand now, and to believe this, their lives are not truly lost.  It doesn’t matter whether you believe in a heaven, hell, or even purgatory. They stand beside you, around you, within you- immortal within your memories of them. Call to them, remember them, they will come and in your darkest hour, provide the light that can guide you back from the depths of depression and despair.

Through you, they will live forever. Through you, they can experience a life they never were able to live. Through you, and your eyes, they can see their families grow.

Letting go is hard; but not impossible. Letting go does not mean you forget them. Letting go is an understanding  of temporary separation between you, your loss, and the powers that watch carefully over the balance which is life, and death.

Do not forget that they live within you.  When you live, you live for them. You laugh,
you cry, and you dance for them- an intricate weave of love and memories.

Do not forget- and they will live forever within you, and yours.

Always and always,

Futuristically yours,


Be Like A GNAT!

Dear Shae,

You sit outside shooting the breeze, and notice a cloud of swarming Gnats. They’re just flying around haphazardly in three-inch rectangles in  groups of thirty.

“What is wrong with those damn Gnats”, you wonder silently to yourself. You have a moment of revelation.

Those crazy little bugs just pointed something out to you with their aimless swarming. It’s not aimless. They are just doing what they do best, instinctively enjoying the weather with each other kicking it in the sun until a tasty mammal walks by.

They swarm so annoyingly natural being their selves. They instinctively know where the best ray of sun is to swarm in. They use their senses to tell them when a dinner opportunity is nearby. They’re just out enjoying their peak season of the year.

Why can’t you be more like a Gnat?

Fact is you ARE like a Gnat. Now that you are aware of it, you can touch up those Gnat qualities you have.

The first thing you can do is start sticking to your first mind more. That first mind is your natural instinct. When you stick to it (as you have done before and witnessed these truths) problems find solutions, new ideas are formed, sound decisions are made, your character grows stronger.

When you don’t, well you know…worries, chaos and a host of nasty doubting demons dilute your thoughts.

Listen to your senses Shae. You’ve got a lot of them, too many as a matter of fact. Your sense of self  makes you not listen to the rest of your common senses (with your crazy ass! … just like Gnats).

You’ll find so many things much more pleasant. Think of it as YOU DOING YOUR OWN THING. That’s what it is. Your first intuition, thoughts, ideas, feelings, that’s all you. Be yourself. Listen to you.

So take a note of that. First mind … senses … be you … Gnats.

Futuristically Yours,

Tiera LaShae


My dearest Aezora-

I understand life seems unreal right now-

The dream world you find yourself within is chaotic and

Your reality is limited to our own imaginations…it is a
perception of the individual mind…your individual mind-

Take for example the colors of the rainbow-

It shines in shimmering brilliance after the storm…An omen
of safety –

Its colors are the basic…Red, yellow, orange, green, blue, indigo,
and violet

These colors are given a universal name, in every language a
different word, only used to identify the same color.

These colors are different however, never the same- as
unique as a finger print-

Each person sees a different hue, a different variation-Their perception creating a unique world of vibrant color, or neutral grays.

Though your own perception of reality is unique- you share
your experiences with all those you come into contact with-

Each person you walk by, stand beside, touch, speak to-

Each person you look at, or smile at, even pass by on the
interstate on the way to work in the morning is one you share reality with,
however different your perceptions.

Your experiences are similar, though interpreted differently-

It is these interpretations that separate us into our realties…into
the dream worlds we find ourselves walking through each day-

Do not be afraid to embrace this reality, this dream world.-

It is a permanent part of who you are and you cannot escape

The only way to live through it…is to accept it in its

Next time you see a rainbow, glittering in the sky after a storm remember this
letter and you will find peace is a dark and turbulent reality-
Always and Always,
Futuristically Yours-  NeuZora